Sex with my Paraplegic Fiancé
Hi my name is Cassie. I am engaged to a paraplegic man. We met last July 2 months after his accident. We used to have a pretty hot sex life but with no penetration except for when he could keep an erection for maybe 5-10 min but it isn't fully hard. He got into a second accident which set him back so much. He is in so much pain but there are days when we fool around and there are days when he isn't in alot of pain but while he is in so much pain I'm dying of sexual frustration that I lash out at him for no reason. I feel so bad because I don't mean to and I know it isn't his fault why he can't please me sexually.
Lately I have been looking at him and I'm starting to lose attraction of him but I know it is because I just want him to lay on top of me and make love to me and I'm sick of the fingering I get once in a while because I'm not on top of him while he's doing it so I can't even make it like we are making love its like we are just trying to get me off so I'm good for another couple weeks. I am an extremely sexual person, I've always been and recently I've even been pushing him away from touching my vagina and when he tries to turn me on, it just doesn't work. I just want to love him like I want to and feel him inside me. I cry alot about it and I am so jealous about my friends relationships because they can just have sex whenever and I can't ever and that is such a huge deal to me because it is such a release and I love it. If I could I would have sex all the time. My last boyfriend we had sex about 9 times a week and it was amazing. I'm starting to dream about having sex with other men and even women. He is such an amazing man and I love him so much and he loves me and I will never leave him but I just really I needed to vent this to someone because I can't to anybody. If anyone can give me advice that would be amazing. Thankyou.