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Ok well to begin with I have been with my boyfriend for 9 months now. He is everything I could ever want and I really do want to marry him. And he is just as much in love with me. At least thats how it used to feel. He still tells me all the time that he loves me and the way he is when we are together and the way he looks at me has not changed at all. I just feel like for some reason something is different. I don't know if its just the newness of the relationship wearing off or what. I know that he is not cheating on me. I don't have anything to worry about there. But I do know that he lies to me about little things. One stupid thing is that he smokes. He does every once and a while around me but he always tells me they are someone else's cigarettes. And I know they're not. Its stupid but it bothers me that he lies about it. And then theres the phone. I feel like he tries to hide it. Usually keeps it in his pocket. He did leave it out all weekend this weekend but i don't know if it was on silent or not. I have caught him before talking to other girls on the computer, just makes me worry about the phone. He always tells me that if he didn't want to be with me then he would leave. So I don't think thats it. And then theres the porn sites. He pays for them and they are the chat porn sites. I don't know if he chats with them or what but he lied to me about paying for it and told me he would never do that. It bothers me. I feel like it shouldn't because we still have sex at least once a week. But then i feel like we don't have sex as much as we used to. I don't know. He is the kind of person that gets mad easy when I bring up stuff so I'm afraid to ever say anything. I know he is the one I want and I feel like Id be happier like this then without him at all. I mean, we fight, we've have plenty of arguments but we have always worked through them. I love him very much. I just wondering if he still feels the same about me. He tells me he does but things are just different now. I just have all these different things going through my head. Am i just being stupid??
