I have a boyfriend and we have been dating for a little more than three years. However, over the past three years, there had been lots of ups and downs to the point where I actually decided to call it quits many times but later chose to stay simply because I wanted to try again and again.
My feelings for him has changed. I was deeply in love with him but now, I am not sure if I felt the same. I still do love him and would like to rekindle our love but I don't know if I'm wasting my time.
Anyway, during one of our bad times, I became attracted to someone at work. I did not do anything or say anything to this person. However, about a week ago, I bumped into this person and decided to shoot him an email at work. We started corresponding at work but I did not say anything that led him to think I am attracted to him.
My boyfriend is currently in Qatar for work. He doesn't know about my correspondence with this guy at work.
Anyway, this guy gave me his personal email address and cell phone number. I decided to write him and yesterday, after receiving one of his emails, I decided to tell him the truth about my relationship with my boyfriend. I think my email hurt him because he said it hurts to know that nothing can happen between us. He also said he already likes me a lot, and he doesn't know what he'd do if he fell in love with me and couldn't do anything about it.
I sent him an ecard telling him that I'd still like to offer my friendship.
I don't know if I did the right thing or not. I am confused because at this moment, I am supposed to be thinking about my relationship with my boyfriend. We wanted this time away from each other to see if we could improve on our relationship. But then I found myself being attracted to this guy at work.
Is this considered cheating? I mean, this guy and I have been corresponding via emails since last week without my boyfriend's knowledge. Should I stop these emails and tell my boyfriend the truth? Or is it still OK to be friends with this guy knowing that he has feelings for me?