I have a great friend who found me on a social networking site last march & i happened to remember him from way back middle school. We're in our early 20s now. We haven't seen each other since then since we both went to different High schools. We started talking on AIM & he told me something i didn't know about & that was when we were in junior high together, he had a HUGE crush on me. Of course , he didnt tell me at that time since he was quite shy & we were very young, which i suppose is understandable. But he finally told me after about 6 or 7 yrs & I thought it was good that he finally told me since i always wondered who may have had a crush on me during my middle school yrs. Plus he also told me he started to have feelings for me once again & that he was interested in dating me. So things were going pretty good for a while. We were trying to take it slow & do it the right way, & we even came up w/ cute nicknames from a Disney movie that we were gonna use once we'd gotten to the next level since that's what my friend likes to do. But, we did have some ups & downs/rocky parts but we tried our best.
However, seems like plans had changed.
Around the end of August, he started dating a girl whose ONLY 16 yrs old & my best friend was 20 at the time. he's now 21. Immediately after, he told me he was Confused, i guess as to whether to still keep it going w/ me or to continue to dating the 16 yr old & that he felt he needed to figure out things.
Then around the end of Nov., I got a pretty shocking message from him on my myspace & I'm not gonna mention every detail, I'll just give part of it, but this is what he said to me in the message:
I looked at your page (myspace) have read your blogs at times & seriously although I've been trying to give hints, u still don't get them. I'm cool w/ being your friend & all, but I think your idea of friendship is more or @ least thats how it's come off to me. As of right now, I'm happy w/ my gf & will always be. Me & her are very serious about each other & nothing will change that. Even if we did break up later on, honestly, I'd still not go out w/ u. I just don't feel that way about u. I've been trying to leave u ideas as to how I'm not, but u don't seem to pick up on it. And I know I said that one time i was confused but the last time we talked online, i told u i wasn't confused anymore & that i was happy, etc.
He also mentioned that he hoped it wouldn't upset me & that he felt it was best for the both of us to go our separate ways & maybe we'd talk again sometime in the future.
However, we haven't talked since the message which I think it's been about 7 months now, & I don't know how long it'll be if we Ever do talk again in the near future. It's really hard for me since i still have feelings for him, they just don't wanna go away. I pretty much love him to death(which he honestly doesn't know) since I just can't help how i feel about him.
He was like the best thing that ever happened to me when he came into my life.
As far as I know, my best friend may still be dating the 16 yr old & if they are, they'll have been dating for about 9 months now. of course, alot of people including myself dont think it'll last that much longer anyways, since the girl is only in high school just about. But anyways, I even consider the girl to be really bad news even though i don't know her but i know the kinda stuff that she's had like from her AIM status cause one of them she had, i felt pretty much pertained to sex just about & I think that's just wrong & I was really disgusted w/ that & I honestly wouldn't wanna be around her at all.
The funny thing/weird thing is that some of my friends think that he still has feelings for me & all which I find a bit weird, but I just don't know exactly for sure.
So I just don't know what happened after everything was going quite well for a while & could it be possible if at all, that he may still have feelings for me & how come I seem to be so confused about everything that happened & what should I do?? :(