Sounds like you're stuck in the friend zone. I don't know why so many females don't want their closest friend to be their man, and would rather have a complete stranger at the end of a single day... I speculate it has to do with having a stable male role model that they lack and depend on you as more of a traditional father or brother figure... there to guide and protect them from their more random encounters. If she wanted you to touch her ever, she's have let you long ago. It'll take a while to regain that trust, if ever, so I suggest you don't do whatever you did again. She just isn't into you like that. Hook up with one of her friends or something. She how she reacts to you being with somebody else, if she doesn't really care, and she's not jeleous, well, you then know for sure. But I can just tell you now. Get over, and get on with getting it on with somebody else who is all about YOU.