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Hey, me again with the same problem. What is it? Well, if you haven't read my last post, it's that I'm in love with my best friend (and we're both girls) and I wanted to confess to her. But my last post went something like this: But before I could even confess, she ended up moving-- it ended before I even tried. Of course, I tried to end it on a good note: we had a party and everything. But of course, at the party we were watching a movie a/b gays... sorta and, well, I got my answer: someone called the gay a "faggot" and she said she would never say that, but she would never be gay either-- so like i said before, I got my answer before I even got a chance to say anything.
(That was just a pretty long update...) After that, she invited me to her house in a dif. state and I spent some time at her house. I was supposed confess then but I ended up ditching out of it-- so after that, I was able to say goodbye. It wasn't very emotional--
After that, I changed my number and didn't call her at all during the summer... by august, I found out that she got my number-- when she called me I started freaking out cause, i mean... like how did she get my number? but when I answered after like the third time she called, we've been calling at least once a week or so and catching up on stuff.
And like I said before, this relationship just won't end-- she invited me to go to a boarding school with her (i know, i know-- boarding school? are you kidding me?) but she said that we would be together if we did-- I was thinking the same, but I can't believe she actually said it :P She also keeps telling me that she wants to see me again... and she tells me that I'm the only one she's still in contact with almost every week, b/c she hasn't called our other friends in weeks... so I'm starting to think that there's a bit more to all this than "just friends"... i hope. And I'm wondering, is it normal for her to be... how should I say... this into me (???) if we were just friends... Of course, she did say that "she would never be gay herself) but then again, I always said things like "that's gross" (no offense, but it just kinda came out) whenever we said anything related to gay relationships... [my point for that is that she might be lying like i am about it]
my point is, it's to the point where I really don't know where she stands-- is she at least possibly interested? should I confess or not? b/c if i don't, i could end up going to school together with her again and acting like friends and progress from there (maybe...)-- or if i do, i could find out right away and not be bothered by this again-- of course, if i do, there's the possibility that she might feel awkard about it and reject me and we end up not going together...
(That was just a pretty long update...) After that, she invited me to her house in a dif. state and I spent some time at her house. I was supposed confess then but I ended up ditching out of it-- so after that, I was able to say goodbye. It wasn't very emotional--
After that, I changed my number and didn't call her at all during the summer... by august, I found out that she got my number-- when she called me I started freaking out cause, i mean... like how did she get my number? but when I answered after like the third time she called, we've been calling at least once a week or so and catching up on stuff.
And like I said before, this relationship just won't end-- she invited me to go to a boarding school with her (i know, i know-- boarding school? are you kidding me?) but she said that we would be together if we did-- I was thinking the same, but I can't believe she actually said it :P She also keeps telling me that she wants to see me again... and she tells me that I'm the only one she's still in contact with almost every week, b/c she hasn't called our other friends in weeks... so I'm starting to think that there's a bit more to all this than "just friends"... i hope. And I'm wondering, is it normal for her to be... how should I say... this into me (???) if we were just friends... Of course, she did say that "she would never be gay herself) but then again, I always said things like "that's gross" (no offense, but it just kinda came out) whenever we said anything related to gay relationships... [my point for that is that she might be lying like i am about it]
my point is, it's to the point where I really don't know where she stands-- is she at least possibly interested? should I confess or not? b/c if i don't, i could end up going to school together with her again and acting like friends and progress from there (maybe...)-- or if i do, i could find out right away and not be bothered by this again-- of course, if i do, there's the possibility that she might feel awkard about it and reject me and we end up not going together...
