Hey girlfriend,
You share one of my #1 fantasies - daddy daughter stuff gets me HOT.
And like you, I have no desire for my real father.
I used to keep the fantasy to myself, in my head, but as I became more confident in my sexuality, I started sharing it with my partners. None of my partners were comfortable roleplaying this fantasy - the closest I could get them to do is pretend I'm the babysitter, ha!
BUT I finally found a guy I have great chemistry with who can indulge me, and it is super hot. Funny thing is, I'm 35 and he's 32! But he still plays my big strong Daddy overpowering me and having his way with me, and it works. Sometimes we mix it up and I'm the naughty girl seducing her handsome uncle...
Anyway, acting these fantasies out in a safe way has only made me feel more sexually healthy and happy. It's just for fun. It hasn't change my attitude towards my real father at all - that's a completely separate issue and irrelevant.
As for looking for someone to act this out with, such as on CL, I think you can pursue that with caution. You can put an ad up with a faceless shot of yourself and a description of what you are looking for, and you'll get 200 responses in no time. Then you can choose the ones you want to pursue, narrow it down to two or three that look promising. Make sure and get a pic of them, and if you want to meet them, meet somewhere public the first time, like a coffee shop. Make sure they are kind and respectful, and discuss what you like and your limits. For instance they might be interested in spanking you, is that part of your fantasy? Take ownership of your sexuality and do things ON YOUR TERMS.
You really should check out my blog, I cover this fetish and more. Here is one hot post you might like:
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Daddy Knows BestBest to you!
TBK