I have a friend that I had a brief fling with (no sex) just messing around 8 years ago. We lost touch and recently started hanging out again. we're both single - shes dating and im not. when we go out - we get along better than we did before. We always have alot of fun, drink alot and make eachother laugh. I get very affectionate with her., hugging her, picking her up which never seems to phase her at all. Anyways a few times i took her home and when i was leaving the first time., i ended up holding her very close, kissing her repeatedly on her cheeks and her forehead., stroking her hair etc..she had a temporary insecure moment which i dont understand she has no problem finding dates. So it turns out I told her that she was perfect - and she had nothing to worry about..
Anyways - we went out a few more times - and the same thing happens had a great time- alot of fun / drinking as usual, and at the end of the night its getting late and im in her bedroom - everyone else is alseep, and somehow i end up holding her in my arms (cuddling her i guess) really close her head on my chest., and out of nowhere she asks me if i would be her "stand in"., I know why she said it but i want her for more than that...
thing is she never seems to remember any of this - the next time we hang out - i dont mention it either....she barely returns calls or messages., i was trying to take her to dinner - because i work only weekends., i havent even spoken to her - got 1 text message saying maybe we can go out on sunday...but she doesnt say anything online., or call - how come? When we are together - we always have an amazing time - i dont even really need to try-, everything comes naturally. So Im always looking forward to seeing her., taking her out, and taking her home. When I get her home I always end up holding the girl and I dont think I have ever elt like this - not even for the girl i thought was the love of my life when I was in high school..
Now Im thinking of asking her out...on an actual date..but I cant figure out if I should since Im not hearing from her - but I dont want to miss the chance to take her out either..Can you help?
PS i think its obvious that im falling for her, but if all she wants is a stand-in then why does everything seem like its much deeper than that? I mean how often do you hold a "friend" in your arms and then not want to leave or end up kissing them gently you know...have....feelings..