Ok, So I'm in love with my best friend. So I should just tell her, right? well its a little more complicated than that. Heres the story. We met a little over a year ago, at the time we both lived in the same apartment complex. It was not untill about 3 months after that that we got to know each other and became friends. she ended up going to work at the neighborhood bar and since I was a regular we talked and eventually got to know each other fairly good. the First night we hung out was the night before her birthday, she was getting ready to go home for the night since she will not drive after drinking (previous dui) I offered to pick her up and take her back since we were both in the same apt. complex. We had a good time I dropped her off and she invited me out the next night for her birthday. I had a great time and got to know some of her friends.
Fast forward about 6 months, we have been hanging out at the bars, nothing more than a hug and kiss good night, alot of phone calls and alot of drinking. So she ends up moving about 5 hours away, I have been down to visit her about once a month ever since and she has been back about the same. In this time we both had some issues come up, I was losing my job and she was losing her car(lease vehicle, lease was up). Well, to benefit both of us, I have let her use my 2nd car and she makes the payment (to me) This worked out good for both of us in that I could not see any sense in having two cars and she needed one and could make the payment.
Ever since I meet her I knew she had a "boyfriend" he was having an affair on his wife and only came around town about 2-3 days a month. At this time I never had much feelings for her other than really close friends. About 2 months ago she screwed up and called the wrong number one night and ended upcalling his office/home. His wife got the message. That happed the same week I was going down to see her. It was not till later that night that I found out what happened. She was very upset and in the end was glad that I was there to help her through it. That broke off their relationship. Still nothing has happened between us. I have now seen how much I care for her, but knew that it was too soon to make any moves on her.
About a month later I was in her area on business, she had her parents watch her son and agreed to go out with me that night and we would get a hotel. I met her at work and we went to a bar after she got off, we ran into one of her co-workers. This was the first time they had talked outside if work. The co-worker ended up Driving us back to the hotel and hung outwith us to drink alittle more. The co-worker, we found out was Bi, she tired to get with my friend several times that night. Finally we all went to bed (same bed) me on one side my friend in the middle and the coworker on the other side. At one point my friend got up to use the bathroom, I qustioned the co-worker about her trying to get with my friend, at this point I was pretty drunk. I do remember trying to feel up the co-worker. Well my friend over heard us while in the bathroom and was pretty pissed when she came out. I took the blame and convinced the co-worker to leave. We both went to bed and she told me she loved me. I was kind of confused at first then I relised that I think she was jealous that I was trying to get with the co-worker and not her. We never spoke about what happened other than laughing at us and her being really drunk. I ended up staying with her and her son for the weekend and she even wanted me to hangout (more or less babysit) her son while she worked instead of having him stay at her parents for the night. Me and her son got along great and she was very happy about that even saying that he wanted me to stay longer.
About 2 weeks ago she came back to town and stayed at my place. The first night she was going shopping with her best (girl)friend and asked me to drive her. We stopped at a local bar and had a few drinks while waiting on the friend. they went shopping and then met back up with me a couple hours later at the same spot. We hung out till the bar closed and then went back to my place. Both of them were pretty drunk at this point( I was not far off) myself and her changed into sweats and made drinks for the three of us. Her friend wanted to watch porn, I put a DVD in and we sat to watch. my friend got up to use the bathroom and her friend followed. The friend came out completly naked and my friend in just her sweat bottoms and bra. we watched aliitle more and then her friend started to feel her up, She asked me to give them a few minutes. I did and went in the bedroom and waited, I stuck my head out a little while later and saw them 69'ing on the floor. Intriguied I stepped into the kitchen where they could not see me. It did not look like either was really into it. Finally they stopped and my friend went to the Bathroom. I went in to talk to her friend to see if I could get in on the action. She agreed and I went back to my hidding spot. A few minutes later her friend gave me the nod and I appeared and asked "are you two going to keep teasing me, or can I join in?" Niether said no so I stayed and watched, my friend tried to get me to leave a few time but her friend got me to stay. I started off massaging her back, this lasted till they changed postions, My friend got on top of her friend and said "this is how I like it" and proceeded to show me on her friend how she liked oral sex. the postions changed again and my friend was the one reciving. I was not invited to her pussy but worked my way up to her breasts and began sucking and rubbing on them. her friend got a hold of my hand and had me fingering her shortly. this went on for a bit. We took a break and made some more drinks, my friend came in and punched me in the arm saying "why couldn't you leave things with us the way they were" I never really answered her and we went back to the couch. Her friend rejoined us and things started again. Me and her friend got her off a few times (her tounge, my fingers) we finally went to bed. Her friend stayed on the couch and we went to the bedroom. Both of us passed out. Again nothing more happened. The next morning I ran her friend to her car and then returned to bed for a few more hours. When we awoke, we just laughed about the friend trying to find her clothes and never metioned any more about earlier that morning. She left a day later and we have yet to talking in any detail about what happened.
We have spoke on the phone since, She called me on my birthday and we talked for several hours. We have talked about christmas and plan on meeting up shortly after to exchange gifts and have plans to stay at a new hotel in her area for her birthday.
So I guess here is my questions. I want to be with her at least in a sexual relationship but do not want to lose our friendship. I know she till has some feelings for the guy she broke up with a few months ago, even though he has not called her and she can't call him(his wife is watching the phone records). She has made a comment several time that "When something happens between us we will deal with it then". We have Talked several time about moving in together to help with bills and expenses. Everyone that knows us thinks we are dating and sleeping together, we both deny any claims and say we are just really good friends. Some have even said that we are good together and are a "cute couple". Should I make a move when I see her next and tell her how I feel or should I wait? Am I too Late?
Thanks