Sadly there is a lot in the story, unfortinatly none of it has to do with past abuse. The strainge thing is I'm the only one who thinks it is dangerous. Normaly I'm a very kind nurturing person but as my friends have all pointed out I can be frightening. Mostly because I have times where my temper sudenly flairs without warning or cause and basicaly I give Vlad the empaler a run for his title, but also because i've a good skill at mentaly manipulating people. My boyfriend knows about my temper but he's never been at the brunt of a full attack. And he does not believe things will get as bad as I say they can. I can't convince him otherwise and there have been times where if I hadn't been so good at medicen I'd have had to take him to the hospital. and it's so darn unpredictable because i have so many moodswings which can change at the snap of a finger. I've tried to stop the whole thing but he knows how to break my will, which he is very good at doing.
I just don't know what to do anymore