I hope that this is posted in the right place!
I'm 18 by the way.
Anyway, here's a small problem for me:
Let's just say that a 15 month's ago I was at a friend's B-day party, and there were about 20 people there. This girl is there, wasn't attracted to her at this point, but at one point, I was playing the piano, and she sat down right beside me, and I mean, right beside me and was just talking for a bit.
A few months later (Summer '08), I'm on a camp, 2 different ones, in the same place, 2 weeks in a row. I went home in between them. Said hello at the first one, didn't really talk to her, but during the 2nd one, I talked to her more, meaning in the last few days, when something inside me started. One of the days she sat opposite me at dinner time, could have sat anywhere else. There were loads of other people at the table, but we were only talking to each other, just laughing and what not.
The next day, I sit opposite her, but this time it was a bit weird. There were other people there, we were all talking, and I had to say something to her to get her to talk to me, but anyway.......
Last day of the camp, I see her talking to my mam! Dunno how that happened, but it was a great excuse. When she was going, she touched me on the arm, saying goodbye.
Saw her about 2 weeks later at another event that we were both at, got the bus home with her and another friend, we were all just talking, I was being perfectly normal.
And then I find out that she gets this boyfriend!
Saw her a few months later, talked to her a bit, haven't seen her in about 6 months, have had little contact with her online.
Then I decided, hey, I wanna do this music course in a certain college, I then find out that she just started it last September! She's only a few months older than me. She's one year ahead of me because I took a year out to do a smaller course. I applied for the course that she's doing this year, and my interview's soon.
Now, please don't get me wrong, I really thought about the course way before I even knew that she thinking of the same place, I hope that I don't sound like a weird stalker or anything! She's been giving me advice about the course online, completely oblivious to my feelings that are dying out for her.
So, after that story, my question is, do I let those feelings die? They almost are, I'm not crying over her or anything like that, but it is a small concern of mine? Is it wrong to have feelings for someone who is already taken? I had feelings for her, and then she got the guy. I'd really love your help, thanks! I hope that I can be a bit of help on the forums too. :)