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hi... I've had few emotionally envolved relationships on my life. I think mostly, its because of being scared, and most of them have ended badly, so it just gets harder every time. the thing is... in the last one i had, which actually lasted only 1 month, after 6 months of trying to actually be in a relationship, things ended very very bad (she is the sister of my cousin's girl friend). it all started (normally) great. she had been in to me for a while, but i was with someone else. anyway... i broke up with this person, and started chating (ove the computer) with her, a lot, about 4 or 5 hours a day. i tryed to call her, but most of the times we couldnt talk really because of bad signal, or stuff ike that. anyhow, we fell in love over the computers (stupid...) and so started to go out, to the movies and other things, as friends. after about 3 weeks of this, i tryed for the first time to settle a relationship, something simple, but she changed the subject as she saw where i was going. things wento on like this for about 6 months, the same happened as i tryed to kiss her for the first time (to clear things out... i was interested in her way further than in a physicall way), and when i told her that i loved her. when this kind of things happened and all of them formed a "climax point" of frustration, i talked to her, and told her that she was doing nothing. she agreeded with me (all along she knew what she did), and in the next week or two, she was great, it really made me feel that she was the right person to bein love with, but as i let her know this, she went away again, with her friends ignoring me the whole time. well... after 6 months and after one of this climax points, we finally hooked up. things were good for 2 weeks, but then she did "her things" again. i know i shouldve ended anything since i saw her way of acting and how we both reacted, but i didn't. after this last month, i got really angry, ended the relationship, and treated her really badly, i just went kind of mad, and called her many things. obviously, i felt bad about it after, but by that point nothing could be done. anyway, this happened like 5 months ago, and i still fell bad about everything. i have no intentions of being together again, but ive been feeling like sh*t too long... sometimes i think the answer is talking to her... but somehow it just feels wrong. now even when i remeber i get depressed and angry as hell at the same time. i dont think i have been so in love as I was with anyone else, and never suffered so much... nad felt so bad about someone just choosing her friends over me, it had happened before, but this time it was worst. after 5 months of felling like this im beggining to worry... any way out?
